counting the days.

keeping everything to yourself.

bottling up all your emotions.

not voicing out because you felt that no one would listen.

not being able to find someone to confide in.

losing your loved ones and your close friends.

fear of being rejected.

afraid that someone will find out what's going on inside you.

don't feel like responding to anyone.

just want to be in your own world,

cater for your own feelings,

your well-hidden emotions,

darkest secrets.

afraid of trying,

of taking the first step,

because you don't like the harsh realities.

most of all

you are afraid to-

fall for the wrong person at the wrong time.

现在我就是

多辛苦也不想让父母看见我狼狈的一面。

even if I don't see you, you still appear in my dreams.

why are you still here?