counting the days.

Mostly I'll just keep to myself, sleep the day off, hoping that tomorrow I'll feel better. But it doesn't work all the time. So what do I do then?

I feel beaten. One obstacle and Im down. Why am I so weak?

I want to be stronger, so that nothing but God can bring me down.

Do I deserve all these luxuries when I already disappoint you?

I don't, and Im still thinking straight.

I hope for nothing but a life that glorifies Your name. But I have been doing so badly in my life that I feel worthless, do I even fit to do Your will?

Im imperfect, but my flaws always cost me a lot. I don't whine because I am imperfect, I just don't get how I can be so clumsy and make so many mistakes.

Most of all, Im disappointed at myself. To the extent where I don't even have the courage to stand up again. What if I fail again and disappoint my family again? I can't even bear to think about how they would feel. It's excruciating.

Im in pain.